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November 27th, 2009
12:11 am - happy with life
i shall return with a proper blog entry soon.
with pictures from each day i went out.
class chalet was cool.
tho in the end only nabil and i were up.
everyone else SLEPT.
cause of the hell boring thai movie.
hahahahahahaha
will elaborate more with pictures.
:)
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November 25th, 2009
10:08 am - after A levels post
I TELL YOU AH
AFTER A LEVELS
BLOODY NICOLE AND I WERE LITERALLY SCREAMING AND SHOUTING AND RUNNING AND HOPPING AND SKIPPING AND DOING PUNCH THE AIR WHILE JUMPING THE WHOLE WAY TO THE SCHOOL BUS STOP MUAHAHAHAHHA!!!! nic also kicked the door of the school and we both screamed fuck you pjc.
only to find out we were supposed to take the forest route to go ikea.
lol.
omg what i wud do to get that feeling back man.
and the whole way in the train we just answering each other with, I DONT CARE, A LEVELS IS OVER!! muahahahahahah.
so we went to queensway to buy her shoes. was surprisingly quite fast. i expected to spend hours there but she only took about 1.
den went to ikea and i ate quite alot. din eat their meatballs tho cause it contains PORK and even tho i said im putting religion aside for now, i still refuse to eat PORK. hahah nic had to eat all those fats on her own.
on the way home nic was emo mimo. but its okay cause we are gonna have fun fun fun soon!
reached home, changed and went straight for an hour jog.
bloody happy that i can start exercising and lose all my fucking fats again.
i need to diet. i really do.
but how to, everyday food is an activity.
ikea food, sushi, bbq tonight, rendang and curry and ketupats.
:(
after the jog i saw my dad smoking under the block.
made him put out his cigg (i bloody detest cig smoke)
den sat beside him
and htht for an hour.
:)
went home, talked to cherhow on the phone.
muahahahha talk cock.
den bro called and we went out to plan lan.
knnbccb no cs, and l4d on bros com not working.
so we ended up playing WOW
and its not wow at all lor i was bloody bored.
second game of wow was more fun i think cause i got the grasp of it.
tho i still kept sying,
i bloody killed many monsters kay
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAH
den com started repeatedly jamming and we went home.
instantly died on bed the moment i touched it.
Day 2:
woke up early quite surprisingly.
called jo to ask if we still gonna eat sushi.
waited for siti to wake up.
den i got ready and left.
and even tho i left quite early,
i still reached the latest.
there was an hour to waste before buffet starts.
went to cinema and ate nachos.
den slacked.
buffet muahahaha food lor.
ate quite alot.
which is only normal.
since the last buffet i went to SUCK COCKS what is time limit nbcb.
after tt went kino look at books.
zzzzzzzz
den went ion look at heels.
:)))))))))))
went back earlier cause i had family meeting.
Day 3:
class chalet. hehee
i cant wait to go out with everyone else aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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November 23rd, 2009
12:33 am - ultimate liberation
in less than 15 hours time
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November 22nd, 2009
11:57 am - to cher how, thanks for loving me
It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight
[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me
[Solo]
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight
[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
i always listen to this song on YOUR mp3 hahah
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10:07 am - for my bimbo keline woo zhen wei
hey bimboo love! hahahah see im so nice to make a post just for u.
anyways, all the best for your exams.
i know ur damn anxious.
and u may not be as prepared as u wanna be,
but its okay.
just go with the flow.
you have this one day to cram and just cram like mad okay.
dont let distractions get in ur way not at this time!
push away whatever problems you have now, you can deal with it later.
focus on ur FUTURE.
you are smart.
i know it and i hope you do too.
so just let your brains and creativity do the work.
and let fate take it from there.
im sure you will do awesome.
:)
<3
THEN WE CAN BLOODY ENJOY MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!
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November 19th, 2009
08:49 pm - im reminded
of how much my dad can really piss me off.
gah.
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November 18th, 2009
10:54 pm - A levels = No life
not only have i not watched 2012 and paranormal.
(gonna watch with noob and cherhow respectively)
i also have not been gg out.
which means i have no pictures to post up.
means my blog is ultra lamexzxz.
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07:54 pm - ECONOMICS
was a major fucktard.
i heard jjc died.
i think pjc did too.
my only hope is that the whole of singapores economics students died.
haish.
most killer paper.
i teared while tying my papers tgt leh where got people cry cause of exams?!?!
ok got la but it aint supposed to be me.
like i said, A level does wonders.
fuck a levels.
fuck fuck fuck.
chem paper was a major disappointment too.
couldnt do last question for nuts i think ill get 0 for that qn.
:(
A levels bloody makes me feel damn stupid.
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November 17th, 2009
08:05 pm - the end is nearing
7 DOWN WHOOOOO
ONLY 3 MORE TO GO
DAMN.
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November 14th, 2009
10:48 pm - falling for you..
I don't know but...
I think I maybe
fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I..
know you better
I am trying..
Not to tell you..
But I want to..
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding..
what I'm feeeling..
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my..time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my.. life
and now i found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm falling for you...
I'm falling for you...
As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
and we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's juusst
you and me
I'm trying..
Not to tell you..
But I want to..
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding..
what I'm feeeling...
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my.. time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think i'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my.. life
And now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...
Ooh, I just can't take it..
My heart is racing..
Emotions keep spinning out...
I've been spending all my.. time
just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my..life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...
I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think i'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...
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12:19 pm - the start of a whole new beginning?
well most friends know that the relationship between me and my dad have been really strained since i was in sec 3. well basically i hated him and wanted him dead since then. well up till about now.
of course there were instances when i felt guilty that i hated someone who loves me so much, but really when i think about all his actions, there was really no space for forgiveness in my heart. i hated him and i wanted him dead and thats all i knew.
my dad did not rape me or abuse me sexually or anything. lol dun get me wrong, he is a nice man. its just the way he handles his problems which i really do not approve of.
well about a month ago he left for indonesia, to seek new opportunities. and let me tell you i was overjoyed to have him gone out of my life, even if it was only temporary.
the depth of my hatred and fear for him is a lot. like at home, i would ensure that we would never be in the same room or house area. if he was watching, tv, ill be in my room. and i would know when he wakes up. really ive developed these senses which i would know where he is at any point of time and what he is doing. if i dont have this knowledge, ill panick.
quite funny la my paranoia.
so him leaving was such good news. it meant freedom in my own house. haha.
and so yeah, he left and i spent way more time at home den i used to.
den last week i was eating wid my mum, and she told me my dad was gonna come home on the 10th. wah my heart broke man really.
i actually went to my room and cried. LOL.
but now, me and my dad are getting closer.
i casted away my fear and started talking to him when he came back. we had a few laughs since then. i think we both shifted in attitudes towards each other.
i think im starting to trust him more with my life, cause i found out he actually can accept any form of lifestyle i choose.
and i think he is backing off from interfering with my decisions, i dont know why either.
which makes it easier for me to open up to him.
like literally, for once in 4 years ive actually thought of gg out with him, spending some time tgt, when all this time all i ever want is to get away from him.
of course im still not totally comfortable with him. hes hurt me both emotionally and physically and i still cant forgive him as yet.
after a levels is gonna determine whether the rs progresses of degresses. but for now, im enjoying the tensed comfort i can have with him.
~~~~~~
he is quite cute lor, he's character of when i was in sec 2 is starting to make its way back up from the dead.
all his lameness and boyishness.
like yesterday, i caught him playing with a light saber ON HIS OWN hahahhaah making all the special effect noises and swishing the stick around like a lil boy. :) tts my daddy which i used to love man.
sometimes i wish i was still in sec 2, when me and my dad were best friends. like litearlly best friends and ive never loved anyone so much.
times change, people change. more like, we get to know the true colours of people.
lets just see how the relationship goes from here. :)
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11:23 am - I WANT THIS DRESS THO ITS GOT PRINTS ON IT.
i think having 2 best friends who have fetishes for floral prints is slowing influencing me.
THIS IS NOT CALLED COPYING HOR.
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November 13th, 2009
11:00 pm - friday the 13th
no wonder today was filled with BAD LUCK.
1) broke up with cherhow
2)woke up with a dead phone tho i charged it the whole night.
thought it was spoilt but no, thank god, my plug just somehow unplugged itself in the middle of the night cause i swear it was charging when i went to bed.
3)woke up ugly
4)cut my index finger in the bathroom when trying to turn off my leaking tap.
5)ate REALLY NASTY SPICY chicken. lol.
6)take the bus to queenstown mac myself for the first time.
was wide eyed during the whole trip looking out for the landmark.
7)got shoo-ed off the table by jolene and siti cause apparently i distract them.
8)was called a liability. wtf.
9)spent more time in queensway mac toilet than in front of my books.
10) on the way to coffee shop, slipped and almost fell in a puddle.
thank god for jolene and sitis fast reflexes who caught me and literally i was balancing off them.
lol.
11) nail polish was scraped off and toe hurts.
12) bumped into tables and chairs COUNTLESS times.
13) felt really emo on the way home.
WAH COINCIDENTALLY ITS 13 BAD HAPPENINGS.
ok i think my bad luck stops here cause the caps is 13 right?
YAY!
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11:47 am - did we really just end it on friday the 13th?
our chat last night led us to decide to just be friends.
i know i was thinking of that option, but i din think it would come so fast.
actually, i din think it would actually come.
but realizing tt my indecisiveness was actually making him miserable,
i ought to let him go.
he dosent deserve misery.
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November 12th, 2009
11:05 pm - gofuckingdieplease
cherhow is threatening to call my house if i dont pick up his calls WTF I AM DAMN BLOODY PISSED WITH HIM RIGHT NOW.
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10:29 pm - 1st week of As over
taken from jolene's blog:
so my 1st week of A levels ended with hanisa screaming at the top of her voice "[FUCK] 6 DOWN 4 MORE TO GO"right after the examiner went "okay you may leave"
LOL shes (meaning jolene) a joke.
but holymotherofgod yeah man FIRST WEEK GONE SO FAST! POOF. IN A FLASH. WHAM BAM POW!
so whats my take on how ive been doing so far?
lol next year retake.
knnbccb what is take 4 years to complete A levels when others take TWO.
i cant be that stupid.
just lazy.
ok first paper was sea hist.
and the topics i studies came out.
but the way they phrased the question was so bloody confusing,
so no, cant score.
second was maths.
which im supposed to be good at.
had hope to score A.
but no.
bloody eyes played pranks on me.
read question also wrong.
lost 7 marks like that. poof.
hey im typing like jolene.
walauwei.
gp = pangsai.
TODAY WAS ULTIMATEXZXZ.
chem paper 3 in the morning.
WTF HOW DOES THE STRUCTURE OF HAEMOGLOBIN LOOK LIKE KNNBCCB.
8 marks go bye bye.
den history. ok here comes my drama story.
i had quite a lot to study during the 4 hours btw chem and history.
and my god ive never felt so much pressure before.
i wanted to cry seriously looking at all my bloody notes which ought to be in my head by then.
really, too stressed out.
i believe everyone will reach their breaking point at one point of their A level journey.
mine abit late ah, 3 years.
but yeah, ive never felt that way before, i just wanted to cry.
of course i din, im a strong girl. :)
got through int hist.
confirm no A for hist.
i doubt ill get a B either.
haish.
tmr im gonna start studying econs.
hopefully i get to score then.
and i gotta buck up on chem.
YES, IM GONNA OWN YOU BLOODYFUCKINGALEVELS JUST WATCH AND SEE!!!
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October 4th, 2009
11:21 pm - relationships. love?
i feel weak yet secure. i guess we just saved ourselves, again. is it a save?
im not sure what to feel. i love you, im sure of that.
i have to stop here. for our sake.
somehow this aint making me the happy girl i thought i was.
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September 30th, 2009
09:55 pm - F
fuck it. fuck you.
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09:44 pm - let me tell you about my day which ended in a disaster.
school was great. got back partial results and im contented. but im worried for the rest of the subjects cause bad news usually comes later, to add more of an impact.
after school went to watch ugly truth with jolene, siti and hockey guys. show was really funny, i think the girl is real pretty and collin is oh-my-god-i-want-him-max.
IT WAS JUST A FUCKED UP NIGHT WITH CHERHOW.
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